In this one, I read part two of my gatekeeper series. This is my letter back to suicide. As I read this one, I tried to put more emotion into it. Let me know how I did! I will include the text for below. Thanks for listening! Download and share!
If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts, please call the SUICIDE PREVENTION HOTLINE 800-273-8255
Also, not entirely sure when, but there will be a three digit number, just like 911, that you can use to reach the SUICIDE PREVENTION HOTLINE. It will be 988. I love this and think it is incredible. Just like an emergency, reaching the suicide hotline should not take googling it to find it. It should be something simple. And I’m very excited for this to happen!
Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?
PART TWO
Dear suicide,
I'm not going to tell you about my friends, my love, my job, or my mom. I know better than that now. The only thing I will tell you is, I'm doing great.
I want you to know that I've hated you since the day you took my friend. He was only in the fifth grade, and you took him away without even blinking an eye. I was so afraid of you because I thought, "only the devil himself could be so evil". Then you took my uncle. I'll admit, that was a clever plan. At the time, I didn't understand, but I realize now that it was the only way for you to get inside of my fathers heart and soul. You waited until the perfect time. Then you used my mom as a distraction while you took him from me. A surprise attack, as if you hoped it would force me to take my guard down. Instead, it made me want to fight.
I came up with a battle plan, and my cousin was my right hand man. Together, He and I were going to defeat your army of addiction, depression, abuse, and all the other evil pawns you have... Until you took him down. Without him, I've had to battle a new fear, illuminated by your light. A fear of bringing those who I care about into the front lines of this war that I wage upon you and your evil reign. A fear of encouraging people to believe, only to watch them fall to your feet.
After all of this, how could you think I would consider you as my friend? Is it because of the poems I write about you? I write about you in effort to expose you. I hope that the more I shed light on you, the less fear people have for you. I want them to realize, there is a little bit of you, hiding inside of us all... Maybe then they can see how weak you really are. Maybe then, they can stop hiding from you, and you won't be able to overpower anyone anymore.
My happiness will never lead me to you. In fact, my happiness is, in some ways, inspired by you. You think that by taking my family, and friends will bring me closer to you? All it has done, is made me more aware of you, which has inspired me to be nothing like you. It has inspired me to fight against you.
So, until next time, I will always be thinking of you. I will continue to exploit you, and raise awareness of how to defeat you.
Sincerely, Clyde