BONUS!! Since part four was so short, I figured I’d release this one today!!! Thanks for listening!!
In this episode, I read part five of my Gatekeeper series. This was probably the piece that I realized that i had a tenement talent fora different kind of writing. One where I can create a visual through my writing. Thanks for tuning in!
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Life…. Who said you have to do it alone?
PART FIVE
"THE TOWN"
Dear friends and family,
My journey has been quite difficult so far. I'm not entirely sure where I have just passed through. There were some things that looked and felt familiar, but there were also things I did not recognize. At times it felt like a place I'd been before, but then I'd pass something that made me feel uncertain and out of place.
One thing I know for sure is that I did not like anything about it. It was so dark and gloomy that I thought about trying to find a way around it, but I didn't want to get lost, so I knew I had pass through. There wasn't a single light to be found anywhere, and it was as if a rainstorm was permanently positioned above the entire town.
When I first entered the "city limits", it felt as if I had just been teleported to the edge of the universe, and everything I had ever learned was completely irrelevant. It felt like I forgot how to walk... I didn't know how to talk... I even struggled to breath. It felt like the earth stopped spinning, but at the same time, it was as if it began spinning faster, and gravity became too unbearable to stand on my feet.
It was like being trapped in an elevator, and that elevator was going up, but it was rapidly gaining speed. Claustrophobia was suffocating me, yet I was in a vastly open space with fresh air. It was the most intense pain I'd ever felt, but that pain had a familiar sting...
After some time, reality slowly started shifting back into place. It was like watching every single pixel, one by one, as they create an image on the computer. I caught my breath, I rose from my knees to my shaky legs. Afraid of turning back, and experiencing it all over again, but afraid of what else that desolate place might have in store for me. I gained my composure, and tried to navigate my way through.
As I moved on, there seemed to be separate areas that briefly gave me different feelings, but the scene remained dark and gloomy. It all seemed to be new, but there was a strange familiarity throughout.
At one point, I tried to make a desperate run, and escape the terror as fast as I could. Before I got very far outside of town, I found myself right back at the beginning... At the edge of the universe, helpless and full of anxiety. I tried making a run for it several times, and every time I ended up right back at the beginning. It was like the town was just one big loop. I'd run up one side, and down the other, right back where I started.
If there is a Hell, I'm certain I just went through it. It was a nightmare that was stuck on repeat. The same scene, the same emotions, the same feelings. Every time it started over, I knew exactly what to expect, but I couldn't change anything about it... No matter how hard I tried. It continued like this until I decided to embrace it all. Instead of running straight through, I explored. I walked down every street, every alley, and eventually things started to change... Or at least they appeared to. I discovered more parts of the town that felt familiar, and I felt a bit of comfort.
Before I knew it, the town was behind me. I was worried that I would still end up back at the beginning, but as I got further and further I realized I was no longer stuck in the loop. I was no longer trapped in the town of Heartbreak. Hopefully I can continue this journey without having to ever go through it again.
Anyways, I must carry on. I'll write again soon.
Love, Clyde